From the Depths of Your Soul

[Morsereg Dîndaedel]

Hey guys,

Yes I know we have a lot of banner contests running amuck, but, you know, there's always room for different ones around LOL. Ok, then...I know most of us, if not all, have had atleast one song or group that reached deep down into our souls and touched us. This is our chance for a contest to show our skills at using bands and lyrics.

Topic: Any band of your choice
Quote: any lyric of your choice [although a lyric is a necessity! A couple lines, please]
Size: Whatever size you wish. Remember, this is just to see how much emotion you can express. Free your soul in this one graphic.

Okay...who wants to sign up?

[Envin]

Hey, that's a good idea (cookie for Tony) - I'll join!

[vanya]

Sounds cool, I am in.

[Alucard]

COOKIE! *sits in corner, nibbles on cookie. Hisses at all that come close. When cookie is done, runs up to Megan and asks for more money for cookies. Suddenly crawls up Meg's back and hunches on her shoulder, cackling evilly, in the style of Ani Toguro, and petting her hair, muttering* My preciousssssssssssssss......

[Envin]

*suggests to Megan that she find Tony to kick alucard's ass b4 he drinks all her blood*

[Alucard]

LOL That was meant to be tony, not Alucard...XD

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There you go. That'd be my entry, using the song "Tournqiuet" by Evanescence. Most people on here know that I am an avid Evanescence fan, and I find alot of their songs touch me, but Tourniquet touches me the most.

I've had a bunch of friends who have contemplated suicide, and gotten to the point where they actually began cutting. They all stopped, and are fine now, but in the times that they were thinking of suicide, I found this song all-too-real. And then...*sigh* I never thought I'd be admitting this on a board...but, last year...I attempted. Yes, your friendly, happy, couldn't-give-a-care ruler of Angmar, Tony, attempted suicide last year. Obviously, I'm still alive, but...yeah. I couldn't find this song any realer then I do now, and every time I hear the song I hear the sadness involved within it, and it reaches deep down. Sometimes, if it's late at night, it can cause me to get close to tears.

Full Text:
I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more. (So much more...)
I lay dying,
and I'm pouring crimson regret, and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
am I took lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

Do you remeber me,
Lost for so long?
Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me?
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

My God ,my Tourniquet
Return to me, salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

--Return to me salvation--

--I WANT TO DIE--

My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied,
Christ
Tourniquet
My suicide


So...yeah, what do you guys think?

Note: The lyrics in "--"s are, faded, but you can hear them clearly. They're just sorta backroundish in the music [unlike stuff in parenthesis, which means backup vocals XD]

[Saeros]

Whow Tony. First whow for admiting openly what background your favourite has for you. Its nothing you have to be ashamed of. We all have our dark little secrets, even we may not tell even our dearest friends. And whow also for the banner. Thats really good, you have increased your skills enourmously.

[vanya]

Okay, here is my Entry, a phrase of Eternal Wait by Ensiferum[/b]:



The full text:

Over the forgotten sea
Voice of angel is calling for me
Somewhere, where the mountains collide
Thats where I'll find my new Life

I have carried this burden so long for you
that nothing but sorrow I feel
I have let myself believe
that nothing would hurt deeper than the truth

Never has the wind blown like thousand years ago
Everything that I've known has left me on my own
Never have I felt the rain fall down like the burning flames
All I see is the face of eternal wait

I hear your silent cry
lost in the rainy night
No reason to live for
one reason to die for

I am the one who has fallen into the path of shadows
(and that road never seems to end)
I am the one who has drowned into the river of tears

I heared this song the first time when I fell into the impossible love to a man who didn't answered my feelings, but used me and my feelings. When I figured out the truth I denied it so vehemently, that I got really deep into a very deep depression. I was paralyzed within this situation and it took a long time to get over it. This text still hunts me and I recall the feelings I had in that time. But by the way, its a beautifull text for a semi gothic/dark metal song.


Well, like I said, everybody has his own little dark secrets.

[Envin]

juu said:

Most people on here know that I am an avid Evanescence fan, and I find alot of their songs touch me, but Tourniquet touches me the most.

I've had a bunch of friends who have contemplated suicide, and gotten to the point where they actually began cutting. They all stopped, and are fine now, but in the times that they were thinking of suicide, I found this song all-too-real. And then...*sigh* I never thought I'd be admitting this on a board...but, last year...I attempted. Yes, your friendly, happy, couldn't-give-a-care ruler of Angmar, Tony, attempted suicide last year. Obviously, I'm still alive, but...yeah. I couldn't find this song any realer then I do now, and every time I hear the song I hear the sadness involved within it, and it reaches deep down. Sometimes, if it's late at night, it can cause me to get close to tears.

Now, if you're having trouble figuring in what order the lyrics are, its:

My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied
Christ
Tourniquet
My suicide.


So...yeah, what do you guys think?

Wow, Tony, that's really humbling to me that you would open up about something like that to us. It's really touching that you feel comfortable sharing that. And I think I understand more than you'll ever know just how much that song means to you. Many of you may know that I didn't have what I would call the best of adolesences, but few people know that I actually entertained very dark thoughts there for some time. How simple it would be to escape from all the troubles that beset me, I thought. And when I saw in the news or heard of a friend of a friend's suicide, I thought to myself Wow, the courage, and the sheer determination of that person...I wonder what my actions would be. I actually admired people for killing themselves, and I still do, in a way. But my entry is based upon a song written by Paul Simon, called The Boxer, and there is no other musical form of loneliness, no other personification of absolute hopelessness and uselessness that I have ever heard. Captures so perfectly the way that I felt those times when my parents were gone and I took the big steak knives out of the drawer and looked at them.

vanya said:

I heared this song the first time when I fell into the impossible love to a man who didn't answered my feelings, but used me and my feelings. When I figured out the truth I denied it so vehemently, that I got really deep into a very deep depression. I was paralyzed within this situation and it took a long time to get over it. This text still hunts me and I recall the feelings I had in that time. But by the way, its a beautifull text for a semi gothic/dark metal song.

Well, like I said, everybody has his own little dark secrets.

Petra, I'm sure sorry to hear about that - I have no idea of how tough that must have been. It's always been a great comfort to me to be able to take refuge in music, music that so magnificently captures the wrenchings of my heart. I'm glad you were able to, as well.

This is my entry for the contest, a tribute to my favorite song, and here is the full text of the song.



Thanks, guys.

[vanya]

I know what you mean. This song from Simon and Garfunkel always touched my heart. And whow to you, too, that you share with us what your feelings behind this songs are about. To my experience, well I survived and I wount let it happen again to me. But I have the strong feeling it wount happen again, because I changed.

[Alucard]

admin said:

Wow, Tony, that's really humbling to me that you would open up about something like that to us. It's really touching that you feel comfortable sharing that. And I think I understand more than you'll ever know just how much that song means to you. Many of you may know that I didn't have what I would call the best of adolesences, but few people know that I actually entertained very dark thoughts there for some time. How simple it would be to escape from all the troubles that beset me, I thought. And when I saw in the news or heard of a friend of a friend's suicide, I thought to myself Wow, the courage, and the sheer determination of that person...I wonder what my actions would be. I actually admired people for killing themselves, and I still do, in a way. But my entry is based upon a song written by Paul Simon, called The Boxer, and there is no other musical form of loneliness, no other personification of absolute hopelessness and uselessness that I have ever heard. Captures so perfectly the way that I felt those times when my parents were gone and I took the big steak knives out of the drawer and looked at them.

Good to know there's someone who can understand. If you all had known me last year, in my darkest of times, you would all realize that Morsereg was an embodiment of all my dark thoughts. The masochism, the sadism, the pyromaniacalism [even if it isn't often apparant in Morsey its still there]. That's how I've been able to let things go for the longest time now, writing. I'd write, and just let my emotions out, and it was the easiest for writing for my other charrie Juu, or for Morsereg, for they oftentimes felt pain similar to what I felt.

That's how far I would get, too...I'd take the knives out, and gaze into their reflection, mesmerized. I'd oftentimes run my arm along the knife, too, but...now that I think back, I'm happy my mom put our knives in the dishwasher. It dulls them alot.

But that was not how my attempted suicide was attempted. No. I tried suffocating myself that time. I just sat there, hands pressed tightly over my mouth and nose, just wanting to end it. But I couldn't.

Because I saw her in my head. Because I saw an image of Megan crying that wouldn't get out of my head. I could never stand the thought of hurting her, even back then. Just shows how long and deep my feelings run.

And how she truly is keeping me alive.

[vanya]

*hugs Tony* You have no idea how good I understand you. It is good you have Meg and I hope this dark feelings will remain in the past and never come back. Sometimes they do, but I wish you the best.

[Envin]

Thanks ever so much for talking with us about this - it's probably a little nice to actually be able to converse freely about it; I know it is for me. I think it takes an enormous amount of courage to actually go through with it, but if you think about it, almost more courage to not go through with it, knowing what hard things you'll have to deal with and still choosing to face them. And choosing to face them because of love is perhaps the greatest reason of all.

[Alucard]

*begins handing out liquor and pipes* Amen!

Anyone else gonna enter??

[Envin]

*a brandy and raises glass* To love and how often it can be more powerful than anything else in the world, and to Tony and Megan! *puffs pipe*